Character development
It’s character development that even though
i started watching titanic the night we broke up,
cuddled up in bed with my teddy bear and a hot chocolate,
i started watching titanic the night we broke up,
cuddled up in bed with my teddy bear and a hot chocolate,
i stopped the movie half-way through,
because I couldn’t stop thinking about this one song,
so I played it out loud and started dancing.
because I couldn’t stop thinking about this one song,
so I played it out loud and started dancing.
It’s character development that right after we
ended it,
I didn’t look at my sandwich in disgust and threw it
away or up,
- I also didn’t keep eating it because now that I’m
single
nobody will look at my naked body so I can
get fat -
I kept eating it because it tasted like
self-esteem and self-care.
It’s character development that after you said
you loved me,
I didn’t say it back automatically or questioned it,
but just accepted it.
Because even though there's no love between us now, I am
loveable
and I’ll still be desirable without
someone telling me that.
It’s character development, that after you said you
needed space
I used the time to learn about rocket science,
rewatching star wars and thinking about flying to space,
because I won’t waste my precious time and dreams on
(waiting for) you.
It’s character development, because once you left for
good
and the house seemed empty and cold,
I used my energy not to destroy memories
and throwing tantrums,
but to start moving furniture and
rebuilding a home without you
It’s character development, that it’s okay for me
that you never wrote me a love song or bought me
flowers,
because I’m able to create a melody on my own
and I can grow flowers in my garden the
whole year around.
It’s character development, that instead of listening
to sad songs and crying all day
I listened to angry songs and went for a run,
instead of writing desperate love letters
I’m reading my course work,
instead of staring on my phone I stared on
butts of other people,
instead of sleeping alone in the empty bed
I stayed up watching porn on the couch.
It’s character development that instead of feeling sorry for myself
I’m feeling sorry for you.
I’m feeling sorry for you.
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